"There is nothing prettier than a beach at 5 AM with its silence waves and cold wind"
nature is so gorgeous
I def. Don’t have BPD Chelsea. Bipolar I Schizo affective, PTSD, Anxiety NOS. Thanks for everything BTW. Promising something to me and breaking it. Literally within days of that promise. That fucking speech you gave me. Wtf!? You are a fucking baby mentally and emotionally compared to the shit I went through the last year…really the last 3 days I spent in Modesto fending for my life literally. When in the end I ended up getting raped and lightweight banged up and pepper sprayed by my friend and her boyfriend left outside blind in a parking lot filled with hookers pimps crack heads tweakers rapists tricks you fucking name it. Good thing I had my car and was able to get to it with bear pepper spray in my eyes. I lost my mind. I have been in hospital after hospital after hospital for a year. I take 1000mg of seroquel a day. Along with a bunch of other meds. I tried to kill myself not know that was what I was doing. Even wrote a suicide note that I just found as I was going through all my papers. You couldn’t call me just 1 fucking time dude??? Just to see wtf was going on and to see if I was OK? YOU are the reason why I went off the edge!!!” You are the only girl that broke every piece of me that made me ME! The shit that held me together. What made me not need anyone ever!!!! I want back what ever it was you took from me so I can come back and be Erika again!! I want to be me again. I don’t know how to be like this. I am so fuckin Mad at you. And at the same time I find you so disgusting. Heartless and cold. Because you are able to just turn your back on everything. Fuck you dude. I’m a good person. You’re just…..nvm glad you’re happy. Seriously. Maybe one day you get why I’m still talking about you.